The Day After Tomorrow

MOVED

2010-10-04T11:18:00.000-07:00

I have move my blog to edisonhojy.wordpress.com

Is time to get going

2010-09-14T03:46:00.000-07:00

3.40am Tuesday Morning. Came back from drinking again. This few days, I have been drinking and smoking. Thinking and thinking, I think is time for me to let go. Say goodbye to past 8 months Edison. Should start afresh. Recently I met up some friends, this group of friends use to be my primary school friend, and some use to be my basketball mate last 6 years. Never never know they can be so supportive and encouraging. From them I learn a lot of things.. not about relationship, but about life and about what a real man is.

Honestly I'm really upset about how this relationship broke off.. I dun believe it, it was a shock to me. I never know a human can turn so heartless, so cold blooded. Not to saying bad about anyone, but from this relationship, I realize, this world can be very cruel but yet very fair.

I have been drinking and sleeping very late for a while, as long dun hit 4am, I will not turn in. But all this will be soon over.. I have to get going already.. To fulfill my dreams! For myself, for the future and for my parents.

And thanks to all my good friends that have been real supportive not matter in facebook, over the phone or in in front of me.. Thanks! ^^

The next post, it will be a better one!

What doesn't kill me, make me stronger

2010-09-10T12:00:00.000-07:00

Ever since the last update, I have been real busy. Busy with work, my love one, interview, my fitness blog and some friends. I have too much to do and now I lost control of everything. I even lost what I love and need most.

To be frank, my relationship just ended. 09/09/10 , so hurt so hurt, yet so numb. I dun know why, this feeling go deep down my heart, yet I can be normal outside but not inside. Been 8 months with her, I think those months are my very precious months. From I ORD soon till I found my new job, she have been with me, supporting me.

We do what a relationship should do, we plan our future, we are just like little husband and wife, buy stuff in Ntuc, Seng Song and even Cold storage. We share same ideas, same hobbies and same interests. Those are what I really think this relationship may last or even forever.

Everything happen in just a moment I never expect. What will come, it will come, never know some how down the road, our character happen to have conflict. Trust issue start to come in, time issue, stress issue. Never allow me to have the time to react, everything start to change in my life.

Holding on to this, if you ask me, how I am feeling now? It hurts, It is 100% hurt. But from this relationship, I learn somethings again. Thanks you Josephine. I love your name, I love you. Let's walk towards our own future and strike the best. Thanks you for all the time and effort you had placed in, I love your cooking too. ^^ Good luck and take care.

The stage of life

2010-08-30T23:09:00.000-07:00

Never know how true it is until I am facing it. Speak is always easier then do. Reaches a certain stage of life, there are no longer what you think in the past, you have to face it and that is the fact. When I was young, I always though things will be easy as long u plan. But when the day come, you may not know what to do. Ask yourself this, are you into passion or money? Which are the one will lead you to a more happier life? You will be confuse too when you reach the stage even you give yourself an answer before this stage reach you.

What is the purpose of living? To work and work? To pass on the next generation? Or we live for the sack of living? I think only ourselve have the ans.

Mix feeling

2010-07-19T02:19:00.000-07:00

Confusion. Tired. Restless. Complicated. Lost.

Shack out!

2010-06-02T09:24:00.000-07:00

03/06/10. 12.25am Thursday. I am shack out today, though will have someone at least, anyone will do, to make me smile or lighten up my day, well, ended up more worst. ha! Have been sometime since my last update on my ORD! It is really joyful to be outside world although tiring. But at least what I given out, I see something in return. When you work very hard for something, sometime it is not just yourself, people beside you, give you encouragement and support, this is what make a person succeed. Have been working full time as a health product sale assistance, selling sport supplements and health supplements, at the same time, doing free lance gym trainer. This is all about passion, although I am so tire, but I enjoy. I hope people that are close to me can give me a smile when I am so shack out, telling me, you can do it! ^^

Busy with worth

2010-05-11T09:01:00.000-07:00

11/05/10 Tuesday. Finally I got the time to sit and do what I wanted to do. I was so busy the whole day and the sky just turned dark like this. Time passed so fast when I am outside comparing I am inside there.. hahaha! Well I went Gym this morning with Zheng Sheng and Andrew. In the afternoon I went GNC to sign job contract with them today as a Full time sales assistant. Being a sale assistant there is not all about selling, I think the only reason I give to myself, I want to know more products knowledge, so in future I am able to provide more details to my clients while I am doing my Personal training with them.

Nevertheless after Signing contract with them, I went back home, get change, immediately I went for FIC course untill 9pm. Meet my little princess and bla bla bla until this timing I am doing my research and studying.. So exhausted..

edisonfitness.worldpress.com

2010-05-03T02:35:00.000-07:00

03/05/10, Monday. Finally! the month I am waiting for so long, the year I am hoping for so long, finally came. 07/05/10 My ORD date!! Yes! 2 years alr! I am glad that all this months, I have a bunch of good friends and my dearest sweetheart giving me all the moral support I needed, regardless of anything. A special thanks to Josephine, which is my sweetheart. She cook for me, always there giving opinions to me, giving me all the support she can. Though sometime I have my own plan in mind alr, she will still give me alot of opinion for me to consider. Thanks alot. I appreciate that.

Last but not least, I have set up my own fitness blog. edisonfitness.worldpress.com/
You can find tips of how to burn fat, getting your muscles bulk up plan. Update of health news and also my profile. More things would be add in soon.

So start being health conscious. You can also email me if you do have any enquiry.

Show it

2010-04-13T23:05:00.000-07:00

To be a Professional Gym Instructor

2010-04-13T20:46:00.000-07:00

13/04/09 , Tuesday. Ord is coming nearer and nearer to me.. REALLY can't wait anymore.. The world is so beautiful. Recently done alot of research on jobs. I want to be a Professional Gym Instructor/Personal Trainer, and that need me to take alot of different certs, I took BEC which is basic course,, and tml gonna start FIC, it is a second level of instructor course. I realise even FIC in this market is not enough, that is only the start, there are also Cert that is acknowledged by worldwide (40 over countries) But in order for me to take up all this courses, I have to work first. I called GNC to arrange an interview, I am thinking to get products knowledge on health and fitness. In future I can than able to give my client the best.

This journey is very very long for me, but that is my passion. To be the best, first you must try your best! ^^

A photoshop edited image

2010-03-22T01:15:00.000-07:00

Missing feeling

2010-03-11T02:51:00.000-08:00

02.45am 12/03/10. In the middle of the duty nite. Really can't slp after trying to turn in at 12am++. woke up a few time. My left leg dun feel well, kind of like weird, dun like this feeling. Alot of thoughs flash through my mind too. Sometime wonder what ppl think, especially ppl that you cares. There are some feeling that I have gone missing for so long but yet to be found.

I would just like to end my entry here. . .

Meaninful snetence

2010-03-09T03:59:00.001-08:00

Happen to saw this sentence in my friend facebook, very meaningful, share with you guys.

有一天, 天爱上了海, 可是空气阻隔了他们. 他们无法相爱, 天哭了泪水落在海里, 即使不能相爱, 天也要把灵魂托给海. 从此海比天蓝.

Giordano

2010-03-08T07:31:00.000-08:00

I had a dream last nite. I dream of my time working in Giordano, it was 2 years ago. Miss my fellow friends I use to have fun with during my working time. Had been working with Giordano 3 years, and now think back, I getting older..

Idols Image

2010-03-06T13:13:00.000-08:00

Some fun editing

2010-03-02T12:30:00.000-08:00

ITE life

2010-02-26T17:20:00.000-08:00

26/02/10 Friday. I was talking to Joseph 2 days ago. Joseph is a friend of mind since we study in ITE, then we study same Polytechnic, and now, we are in the same camp. We was talking about the life we had during ITE, though alot of ppl in that time dun look upon ITE student, in fact even now, but I have alot of great time studying there. If you were to ask me, compare between the time when I am in polytechnic and ITE, which one I have the best time? I would say ITE.

In ITE that time was messy, private society name was flying here and there, wherever you head to in the campus, it is anytime to get into a fight or even get bully if you are those small size or "nice to eat". I rem I got this very good fren in the same class with me, his name is kenneth. Over there he are just like my bro, though he always got bully by me.. As long there is case involve in society or fight, he will stand up for me.

There was one time, I walk pass a group of people, suddenly one of them confronted me, asking why am I looking at them? So for normal ppl, normally will replied, "no" I didn't. But he insisted, and asked me, which socity I am in? So I called kenneth, and kenneth told them, to meet at place at certain timing. He went to call his god sis in the campus which is also a big head, and the god sis went to call diff big head, and ended up we surround them like nobody business, even after case close, where ever he walk to, I can see some group of ppl will go towards them to look for trouble. He came to said sorry in the end. ha!

Time flew, alr 5 1/2 years ago.. Hopefully all of my fren is doing good.. Kenneth, if u see this post, I wanna say thanks! ^^

Cool Tattoo

2010-02-20T04:02:00.000-08:00

Duty day with sweet breakfast

2010-02-19T17:34:00.000-08:00

20/02/10 Saturday, doing duty.. Argh! Is a Saturday! Why am I here? Yesterday I spend the whole evening with Josephine, hahaha! Someone cook dinner for me wor.. first time, consider not too bad alr ya the foods. Time always flew fast whenever we met, why?
This morning, before I booking in for duty, Breakfast done by my Miss Josephine.. Thanks you! So sweet of her. Beside my parent make me breakfast since I am young, nobody ever do it for me.. ^^

2 more months! Pls come fast..

Gong Xi Fa Cai !

2010-02-15T20:14:00.000-08:00

15/02/10 , Happy Chi New Year !! It was long to wait for a new year to come, but it is fast to see the new year celebration to pass. This is already the 2nd day of chi new year, and it is not as good as in the past when I was young.. Thinking back to the old time when I was 10, everyone gather together in my grandpa house, chatting, laughing.. Everything would have a end to it.. At this moment, everything changes. I dun feel the Chi New Year I use to have in the past. Well.. Everything do have the bad side and good side.. ^^

On the 1st day of Chi New Year, Me, Josephine, my brother and his gf esther and my parent, we went to watch 2 movie, "True Lengend" & "72 Tenents" True legend is nice.. like to see heros movie.. hahaha! And after the movie, all of us went home, except me and Josephine went battery street at cityhall for a walk.. ha! Valentine Day! I would like to thanks Josephine for being so sweet, making me so many things that she put in alot of time and afford making it,

Dear Josephine,

Is not the matter of big or expensive the present you gave to me, but the heart and time you had put in. Thanks for being there for concern and care about me, I appreciate it alot.. May our relationship get stronger day after day. ^^

Anxious post!

2010-02-12T01:00:00.000-08:00

12/02/10 , Friday, 12.46am. I am writing this post with anxious, 2 and the half month more, everything gonna be over, gonna start a fresh! Damn it! Have been waiting for that day so long, and is finally coming.. Anyway I heard ppl saying that coming tiger year wun be a good year for ppl zodiac who is tiger, and that's me, not even tiger, mouse, monkey and horse too! So if you are those who are superstitious, better go "bai tai sui" hahahah!

Hm.. I got not much things to update anyway, I'm gonna update more next month with photos! ^^
Anyway, recently alot of things is changing in my life, I should say.. I wanna have a more normal life back, the way I want it to be always.. Hope you guys understand..
I am gonna ORD soon too, I have to start working out with my plans alr.. ^^

Never anymore!

2010-01-09T17:21:00.000-08:00

09/01/10 Just came back from rebel. Dun feel good, really dun like this kind of feel. My bro now each have their own chai, always ask me go club, but end up? I dun wanna call any gal there is because I wanna chill with you bro, not seeing u bro with ur own gals man! If that is the case, dun ask me out anymore.. This is not fun at all.. Next round, if u all are calling ur gals down, dun call me ya. I dun like the feeling like this! This is the last time alr. !@#$%^

Recently feeling damn stress in camp too.. sometime really feel like giving out everything.. So sian and depressed. Always fren depressed, they have me, when I am depress? I have who? I am the one who always settle myself! !@#$%

If there is a chance to go back to the the situation I want.. I will cherish it all I can.. I really miss the day I miss.. ^^

Think I am drunk alr.. turning in alr. Good nite eveybody!

Very tired!

2009-12-29T22:45:00.000-08:00

I am so tired!! Recently like totally got no time to slp at all. Either slp later or wake up early. Think 24 hour per day is totally not enough. For this month, keep clearing leave, so I went club and pub quite often. Watch tv till late hour. Go gym 4 time a week. Woosh.. Think because of all this activity causes me to have difficulties in breathing recently. Having heachace now. Am thinking of alot of stuff too.. hm.. I think I have to really find one fine day, nice weather, facing sea, just lie there for the whole day relax.. and go do massage. hahaha!

Update!

2009-12-15T20:25:00.000-08:00

Had been some time since I last updated my blog, until I helped one of my nice cute fren created a blog, then I realise, yes! it is time for me to update it.
Nothing ever changes! I'm not that young anymore, I'm always so busy doing this and that, just to prepare myself after ORD. Soon! I left 4month 1 week to ORD! Hahaha! so happy and excited about it.

Recently I received alot of feeback about myself, saying I am a clubber la, bad guy la.. lolx! This are the most funniers feeback I ever got in my whole life.. Are you sure? hahaha!

Well.. New year is coming, 2010, ha... I'm so glad that new life going to start soon, everything gonna be different soon once I ord. When I am in there, I really though of alot of things every nite, my family, career, relationship, friends and many more.. Ppl who really stand by me, keep telling me to jia you, are my family and my only bunk mate who every nite talking sorrow with me.. Eugene! We are gonna soon be free ok? hahaha! Hope you find your happiness soon.. And I would pray for you la! hahaha!

As for me.. hm... hahaha! only hize..... hahaha! One thing, I really amire "li ming soon" One day I would let my wife to be as happy as fortunate as fang wong.. hahaha!

Ggrr!!! Life is so complicated sometime. Do you believe, out of sudden, you go ask one of your fren, any fren would do, you ask " Why do we live? " "What is the purpose of living?"
Trust me, they would stund, either give u funny ans , or they also dun know.. hahahaha!

You guys are great! Thanks!

2009-10-27T08:45:00.000-07:00

Had been busy working on alot of stuffs. Can consider very very busy now a days. My gym instructor course started, damn happy, so interesting. I'm gonna work as gym instructor after I ORD. That will be my stepping stone, slowly I will start my personal instructor programme, 1 on 1. I left 5 more months to ORD! Can u believe it? omg!! I can't wait for the day to come! I'm really suffering inside NS. Arggh!

Recently also keep clubbing! hize.. think become clubber alr. But I'm really enjoying it. It's not the chicks there, but the group of frens that gather around, dancing, listening to the music! I appreciate them alot, from my mos depressed day until now, I walk out of darkness, they had been there for me! Especially Daryl, my forever bro! ^_- thanks man!

Anyway, this friday gonna celebrate his pre birthday! It will be a good good nite! ha!
Oh! I am happy for my blood brother Alex, he finally found someone he love, seeing him happy, fortunate, I feel happy too! hope his gf will acc him all the way till he enlist into army and ORD!
Dun be like mine.. My most tough time, the time I need her so much, she left me, Valentine day some more. Ha!

I really feel so great with my life now, only NS is bothering me! hiyo! 6 months faster end pls.....
Just wanna share some photos with you guys. Below attached. Enjoy!

Everything

2009-09-16T01:55:00.000-07:00

Had been very busy lately. Just came back from life range. Finally got to clear my off all the way till Sunday, go back for duty, then Monday public holiday. Yeah! haha..
Anyway last Sat wen social house with kwan seng & his gf, his gf frens and Eugene. Was a memorable nite. Happen a lots of things down there. Wasn't a ideal club to go, but is good to go and experience the ladies nite there (for guys).

So tired now. Closing my eyes anytime. hm.. oh recently, got this craving of doing some home make dessert. Had done some for my family to try, will be doing some more special one to try it out, but so far so good, no bad comment.. wahaha..

This is some photos on last 2 week when we went to my brother working place to chill. A very nice place to chill.

Busy lately

2009-09-01T18:31:00.000-07:00

Looking forward to a day I can really rest and enjoy myself, can feel my smile is real. Had been very busy lately. Wasted a 2Years in ITE, after ORD will turn me 23. Had been doing research on which uni to select, also had attended some courses related to the field of Sports Science. I am quite interested in Sport science in SMA, is a very new uni. There is only 2 Uni in Singapore currently having this course, NTU and SMA.

Hm.. Really wanted to success so desperately. Been planning day and nite for this and that. I believe it is hard to survive in Singapore without working and thinking hard, isn't true??

Anyway, enough of talking about career. Went sun tan quite often lately with Eugene, got myself tanned like close to chocolate colour alr. On the 13th Sept Sunday, there will be a Mizuno wave run 16km, participating! haha! Cool man! hope it will be fun fun fun!

My birthday coming soon too! Thinking of organising a party either at Club or Resort sharing with kwan seng & his gf, his gf birthday month will be same as mine, lolx!

If you guys have any idea, email me and let me know! haha..

21km half maraton

2009-08-14T13:38:00.000-07:00

Saturday, 14/08/09. It is another weekend! Had a tough gym work out with Zheng Sheng this morning. Get to know him more day by day. He is one of my really supportive friend (bro). Counting down for 5 more hours, I'm going to book in soon. Tml morning 6am I will be participating the Army half maraton 21km. It will be a challange to me, the further I had ran was 18km. So I have to finish this maraton, hold on to my determination!

Gd luck Dewi!

2009-08-10T14:18:00.000-07:00

Hey gal, this photo won't look cool without you!
Good luck for your studies & hopefully you would able to
stay put in Singapore to further your studies than going Australia.

Dbl O & Rebel

2009-08-09T20:48:00.000-07:00

Went clubbing for the last 2 days. Dbl O & Rebel. After all I still think, going Dbl O is waste of money. Rebel was having national day event yesterday, as long u wear red tops, white bottom, you will get free entrance, I dun see much ppl wearing that way anyway. Was having alot of fun with all my bro, thanks man! without you bro, weekend is such a boring day.

Went Zirca and Luna after repel, as it is linked, if you guys went before. Repel have got too many ppl. Zirca is fun. Got more space to free style, lolx. I think forgeiner ppl are more friendly, my opinion.

For more pic, pls visit my facebook http://www.facebook.com/friends/?added&ref=tn#/edisonhojy?ref=name

Phuture/Zouk Rock!

2009-08-02T18:31:00.000-07:00

02/08/09 Sunday. 18:14 , is another sunday, and is another booking in soon day.

Yesterday nite was quite happening, derrek, Eugene, zhan yi, ah leong & me went to Social Nite at Liang Court there, as there is a event, but ended up we went Phuture & Zouk! Coz the q was so long and seem like even wait until 2 am also can't get in.

we saw 1 of of our camp mate was at Phuture, just nice he had a table there with his friends, he offer us to join them, so we shared the table. the ratio in the club at 1st was 1:1, as the nite getting late, the ratio became 1:3, that is quite sad. lolx. I think going clubbing can get hooked like drugs, once you love to club, you will just feel uncomforatble if u dun club one week.

Anway, recently I feel something mess up in my daily life, there is fuck up! I can't let this control my mind, I will go crazy and think nothing but all those nosense. I have to start pick myself up.. Time flys, I left 8 more months to ORD!!! yuppy!

I miss the day!

2009-07-21T23:44:00.000-07:00

I miss the days so much.. so much.. how I hope time can turn back.

Plenty of things to say

2009-07-21T01:47:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, 21/07/09, Midnight 1.34am
Well since I got my 7days Mc, this is alr my 5 days alr. Going back soon.. sianz. Confirm when I go back, there is plenty of loads work waiting for me, and alot of lecture from superior. Well but really no choice eh, doc give 7days mc, asked me rest at home, what if my fever spread?? Who gonna take responsibility??

Anyway, I feel so much better after taking the medician. Went to my fren church last sat. Hmm.. All the friendly ppl are there.. I mean compare to ppl I know that is not christian, there is really some different eh. I also dun know why.. But of course there is no good or bad, it is just a good experience to know the different world ppl. If u r ppl who go club often, the ppl u mixed with, really diff from ppl inside there.

Most of them are those guai guai.. lolx. I have a great time recently spending time with all my frens. Being a bachelor, there is also a good side sometime lolx.

Watched High Voltage 2 too. R21 movie. Damn alot of adult scene. lolx. But is quite a stupic show anyway. Rate it 3 star. There is plenty of nice movie coming out.

Thinking of taking a degree now, SMA, Degree in "sports science" Is a part time course, 2 years, but costed $38,000 for 21 modules. I can take now even I'm still serving NS. The slot is always fall on fri, sat and sun. But I have to loan from bank, if I want to.. Also it will take away alot of my own time.. hm... Considering..

Work hard! Play Hard!

2009-07-12T21:00:00.000-07:00

Had been almost 2 week did not post anythings up, as I am really busy. Recently was very very stress in camp, as I got so much things to handle, but of course I am really enjoy every single day when I book out. I work hard! but I play hard too! I can only say, I had been doing alot of things that is meaningful, and knew alot of friends that be there for me when I am down, I learn really alot of things from them too. Life is just keep learning and improving. There will be no end to it, everything that appear to me now, in my life, is just a new challenge to me. Nothing is impossible in this world. Just let ur subconscious mind work for what you want to and wish for. ^_^

I went celebrate Christina birthday yesterday, able to see her smile is great. When you know your friend is so down at a moment, and you eventually can't do much things to help, and when u able to make her day lights up, I believe that is my greater stratification. We just live in this world not coz our self, but we live for others. Etc: Family, Friends, Girlfriend, Children and Wife. Able to bring happiness to them is my greater achievement too.

Had to book in soon.. This coming Wednesday is my brother Birthday, gonna take leave for him to celebrate.. Happy Birthday my Dear bro! ^_^

Saturday Duty!!

2009-06-26T09:24:00.000-07:00

27/06/09 Sat. Morning! I am now in camp doing duty, hm.. by right I am under cover with my MC until today, but due to no replacement, I have to come back. Well since my eye is getting better, is ok la, if not ask others come back, also no one will agree. Dun know must wear spect for how long before I could wear my contact lens again, maybe another 1 week.

What a sunny and nice Saturday, traped in a out of no where place.. Also dun know how they could build a camp so far inside.. lolx.

Will be going gym for work up tml morning!!

Swollen eye (Infection)

2009-06-25T21:06:00.000-07:00

25/06/09 Thursday. I am at home once again. This morning book in, but afternoon need to book out once again. My eyes was swollen this morning, after going back camp, the condition getting worst, so went to see doc. I was given 3 day MC to stay at home. The doctor didn't said much, but I believe it is a infection caused by my contact lens, if I am not wrong, I wore my contact lens even after the expire date. Never had this condition before even I used to have swollen eyes wearing a expired contact lens. This time round was quite serious, can't really open my eye wide, tears keep spilling out, pain and also can't really look at things that is too bright.. @_@ pek chey!!

Club with the mixture of sun tanning with 2 hr of slp

2009-06-20T23:41:00.000-07:00

20/06/09 Sat. Damn tired. Only slept 2 hr since yesterday. Went rebel with Daryl, Dave and... and... er forgot his name alr, is Dave fren anyway. Damn crowed, also dun know why the guy there also plenty, nothing different from double O. But one thing for sure, gorgeous gals down here is definitely more then double O. Met pricillia there too, as her fren BD~ haha.. the nite was fun, just some guys there really turn me f******g off. Went over to lunar too, I heard beyond pop cantonese song once I steped into the club, that is damn nice to hear beyond song down there. After the live band, they played r&b song too. The best thing about there is, there is pole dance, there is not only 1 gal, but plenty~ haha.. erm.. ur nose will bleed if u keep looking at that.. lolx! Pricillia came over lunar to look for me, and we down dance floor for a dance awhile, and we went back to rebel. We ended our nite at 5am.

Went home slept for only 3.5hr, woke up and went meet up cai jing, then head down harbour front meet up eugene, and there we go! SILOSO! hm.. today I used the 0 SPF sun tan lotion, omg~I am now like cooked prawn la.. haha.. We end out sun tanning section at 5pm. Went harbour front eat subway! cool man! the feeling is really great! haha..

there will be a event on 17July at SILOSO beach agian. Called threesome party of the year.
BIKINI BEACH BONGO! From what I know, you need to come in with a group of either 2 guys and 1 gal or two gals and 1 guy. So if u r interested, join me! ^_^

I think gonna turn in soon! damn tired!!

Sun tanning!

2009-06-14T20:48:00.000-07:00

14/06/09 Sunday. 8.42pm. Not long later, I gonna book in soon, argh! left with 10months to ORD! can't wait!!
I went work up this morning with my good fren zs. After the work up, he went to meet his fren and I went sun tan at the yishun swimming complex. The feeling is great when u swim then tan. Actually I wanted to tan on sat at siloso beach with eugene, but when we went there, the weather was not very good, drizzling and cloudy.. So in the end need to do a extra tanning on sunday. Next sat SENTOSA SILOSO is having event, argh! I miss out the men hunk compition.. nvm, go there take a look what is up, haha..

Emo! fuck it!

2009-06-06T11:20:00.000-07:00

Sat 06/06/09, 11.15pm.. Drinking beer alone, just feel like drinking. Feeling down, feeling emo. Why, why must it always happen to me? do u guys do feel emo too in the middle of the night? Suddenly just I dun know who I am, edison ho! where are u? sick of all this! how long should I need to wait? how much should I need to do? when when! fuck it! I will be ok tml.

Up and down with poker face

2009-06-05T01:29:00.000-07:00

06/05/09 Sat Morning. I guess everyone have up and down in their life, so do I. Had been sometime I going down slop since something impacted my life. Not long ago I started picking up myself, everything was doing great, though was very busy everyday, even weekend, I had filled myself with program, going gym, driving practical, sun tan, swimming, reading, dvd, club. Ha.. really have no time to really let myself rest. But I am tired, I am real tire, I just dun know how to express myself here, you may see I am happy, cool.. but that is just my poker face. I am down.. I am feeling down recently.. I just dun wish to say or mention, I dun hope to see ppl around me being affected.

I am looking forward so much to my future, I had started working on my plan. I called MOE, sent email and got the reply from them. I got the passion to be a PE teacher also a Gym instructor. So I believe, if everything going fine, it will be cool~ Gonna buy a car too once I ORD and got my job!
Life will be different. Can't wait to drive my parent around, back to our granddad house with memories.

On Mon and Tue, I went for this shooting program at safti, officer camp. I nearly got my marksmanship!! I just lack off 4 point! and I will get my $200 buck! argghh... Is just because there is some problem to my magazine, and caused my round can't camber in! Angry! If not I can sharp shooter alr! wahaha..

Going swimming tml morning and will head to gym! Afternoon going for driving lesson! It will be a tire day! So I gonna turn in~ ^_-

Posting in the middle of the wed morning?

2009-05-27T02:08:00.000-07:00

27/05/09, Wednesday Morning, 2am. Surprise that I am outside camp, posting at this time? haha.. This morning 9am, I will be on course at safra tpy. It is a course organized by army. Didn't get to update my blog last week as I am too busy. Last sat went sentosa with Eugene and David, though is only guys, but we still enjoy sun tanning there, I can only say it once again, sun tanning is so great. Able to absorb sun light and feel the sensation of the sea wind, can u imagine? haha.. I guess I will increase my group bigger and bigger, so I will have something like a club. wahaha! Who wanna go?? Enjoying life too recently, though was tough in army, but I had learned how to enjoy the process and make use of the time in army to learnt more things. Currently I am also planning some stuff after ord. Plan to pick up JUDO classes during my NS time outside and to put tatoo after ORD. Any comment??
Next month GSS start, it will be a very good time to shop for stuff!! dun miss it man!

Fun and Tiring! Attitude is important!

2009-05-17T20:55:00.000-07:00

17/05/09, Sunday. Few more hours for me to book in. Today all my frens that supposedly will fetch me today back to camp, all having field camp and some not free, so have to book in myself by cab. Anyway recently weekend was crazy and tiring, going out here and there non stop, meeting up some old fren and also went clubbing. Yesterday, I went orchard met up with my very good buddy, she is my very long fren since I am secondary sch, almost 8 to 9 year friendship with her already. We went Hong Kong cafe at cine for lunch, and we have a great chat, feel so happy and glad to saw her, the close feeling between us is so strong, this is call the bond of long term friendship. She also gave me some present she kept for a long time for me, Christmas, Bd, and a T-Shirt she bought from Boston. Thanks Sarah!

I went Vivo met up with adonica, she and her fren was so cute, shopping in the Giant for foods and wanted to cook, difficult to find gals that able to cook nows a day, I helped them to push the cart around giant to hunt for what they want. After the purchase, the thing was alot alot, and they are so tiny little that can't able to carry all their own, so I gave a help hand ^_^ we went to the sky garden to chit chat awhile as the scene there is beautiful. Around 8 plus, they head to taxi stand as they need to go their fren house, so I helped them carry their staff all the way to taxi stand.

9pm I met darly and wendy at cine, we was talking and waiting for Grace, my another long long fren to knock off at 11.30pm. We went to watch Angel and Demon. The show was long, 2 and the half hour. Sit till my back also ache. Around 3 plus after the movie, we went home. haha..

Was tire la, but fun. I think life is full of so many intersting things waiting for us to discover and achieve, but is up to you, how you look at it. Human attitdue is very important. recently, I am reading this books called Winning Attitude, by John C. Maxwell. The content is trying to teach and let you discover, how we should adjust our attitude to face different problems. Nice book.

1st Car accident

2009-05-09T16:26:00.000-07:00

09/05/09, Saturday. Supposedly today is my duty day, and I am not here to post this blog, but yesterday I decided to book out and book in this morning for my duty. Unfortunately I met a car accident while sitting in Felix car, this is my very first case in my life got this car accident, It happened at 7.30pm , at high way exit 7 to madai. When our front vehicle sudden break, we also make a sudden break, this sudden break had alr causes the effect for us to leaded forward and suddenly a vehicle from behind knock on us hard, on that moment, I only able to place my palm at the back of my head and the next thing I could rem is I though I gonna go hospital alr. I was unconcious for the moment, my chest and andominal was feeling weird, I felt dizzy too. I quickly check on my fren once I am more sober. I think this is his first time met accident too, he look quite panic and worry, hopefully he is ok too. It is hard to make a decision what we gonna do next as we are in the centre lane of high way, there is so much vechilce moving fast around, in the last, I need to put my hand out of the window, to tell them to stop for us to move to the outer lane. Susprisinly, the person who knock into us behind was felix primary sch fren! and it was mind too! but I can't really reconise her till felix told me, she was from our class too.. lolx! the world is too small la..

I went to do a check out this morning as I still felt headache and dizzy, took 1 day off mc for my duty this morning.

Chit Chat feeling

2009-05-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

This afternoon when out with li yun. Eventually wanted to watch movie, but ended up, feel to chit chat more then watching movie. Since we have not take our lunch, we went Hong Kong Cafe to have our lunch and chit chat. We then walk around town area and went to TCC at centre point to chill, the enviroment there was great, and the service was good, by this waitress name called "Lynnette" Anyway, after 45min, we went off, we went to esplanade. The scene was great, it had been some time since I last went. The feeling is still so good. She was down that day, what I can do is only make her laugh and listen to her, hope she feel better.

Hey LY, if u happen to read my blog, just to let you know, you are a sweet girl. Pls dun be down so long because of the matter, it will be unfair to other matter and yourself. Let the feeling flow quickly.. Anyway u gived me alot of vitamin today ar, u should know what is that.. pls do not eat too much alr, try to quit eating that vitmain, if not waste alot of money..

Alone! Me, Myself, I and Edison

2009-05-02T00:57:00.000-07:00

Yawn~ I am so tire. Just before I sleep, I were like to update my blog. Today was a very special day for me, is a day where I am just alone. In the morning 8am, I went to my very 1st practical lesson for driving, until 9.30am . In the afternoon, 4pm I went to town with me, myself, I and Edison.. haha basically just me alone. You guys must be wonder, why do I go town alone, reason very simple, no friends.. no la, kidding.. hm.. all my friends are mainly attached, some work, so sick and some dun feel like going, so in the end, I still insist to go. Actually, going shopping alone wasn't so bad as what you think, as long when u want to see the things you want, you can take your time.

This afternoon when I reach town, I went cine, wisma, taka, paragon and shaw house, but did not find the gym bag I am trying to find, but found one singlet from Everlast that looks cool, so I bought it. Around 7pm, I went to vivo and bought a gym bag from Lonsdale londone, not bad man! cool, next time I take the photo of that and show it to all of you..

When I reach home and take a warm bath, hm.. really feel so good, the feeling of home really feel good, I feel secure.. Anyway recently I am watching this korea drama "My Beloved" I ido not know have you watched before, but is a very touching story, by rain. That drama allow me to believe there is still true love exist for that moment.. I was touched by that drama, hey a cool guy like me, get touched is not easy ok! so, eventually is a good show la, go rent or buy and get to watch it!! I believe that will bring alot of your memory back, especially the true love you ever give in, in your life..

Tire.. feel so tire..

Human face the mask that project reality

2009-05-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

Do you believe time changes everything? changed me, change everyone, change the world. Things had been so different in the past and present. The thing that never change is "change" no matter how hard you tried to catch it, have it, remain it, things still change. Human are the most scary things of all, we are evil, everyone out there are playing mind game, putting on mask, who is good? who is bad? do anyone know? When the good turn to you, you never know, and when bad turn to you, you always though they are good. Why does all this happen?

World is facing reality, reality where you will be abandon if you got not money, talent, and appearance , you are just nothing.. nothing at all. What u can do is either, work hard or hide in a hole. Sometime being good to someone or bad to someone, does it really matters? in the end, being good, doing good things, u are just a loser, good people always finish last, heard before?

Some friends I had, they changed, they can change from a person who know u so well, talk to u so much in the past, now even u sms them, they dun even bother to reply single msg, is that call friend? or is that called change? Never try to forget your childhood when you grow, never forget, some of them are the one who ever help you, talk to you or even someone u like before that bring you happiness.. got damn it! If you think you are so good, dun even say hi to me when u see me on the road, beacuse I dun give a shit damn on you!

Tml is my first practical lesson for driving, hope to get my license soon!

I love the beach!

2009-04-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

25/04/09, Saturday. I went Sentosa again! with my very good friend Guan Xu. By right today I am not going, I was too tire, when I woke up in the morning 8am, I am thinking to msg him and tell him dun go alr, but my determination is strong ya.. wahaha! I still forced myself to wake up. When I gave him morning call, nb, he still sleeping. When I reach harbour front, he still sleeping, when I reach coffee shop, he still sleeping. So I ate slowly there to wait for him. We reached the beach around 11am, tan till 1.30pm, the weather was good, very good!! The feeling of sun tanning is only when u try then u know.

Anway after tanning, we went vivo for a walk, I have my lunch there, Clr Jr. Vivo was having Levis shoes exhibition, so went to take a look, I saw this Levis shoes so cool! $99.00

So after looking around at the exhibition, we went to check up his gf birthday present, ha.. He planed quite well, what a nice bf his gf have. I also very good lae, but no gf.. lolx!!! kidding!
After checking for his gf present, I went to meet Miss Cai Jing at somerset, lolx, she went to something there, then I went home to get change and we head to bugis, the new Mall for a movie " The House" . The air corn really damn damn power, I nearly freeze to death when watching movie. People who like to get scare, go watch that movie, was quite shocking when you watch, but dun get night mare! haha..

Anyway, I just want to let all my friends that know what happen to me recently and was worrying about me to know, I am ok.. pls do not worry about me anymore, I think I have though through, the thing I need to do is look far, there is nothing able to stop me if I want to continue, I am strong, as I always said, tough time dun last, tough man do! I am back everybody!! ^_- wink*

Sometime when we touch

2009-04-19T20:30:00.000-07:00

I think there is a old song is very nice, called "Sometime When We Touched" If there will be a gal can sing me this song, I will be very touch. LOLX! Anyway 1 hr more I will be moving off, booking in soon. Argh!! 1 more year to go!! common!! haha.. self motivation.. Life is full of uncertainty.

Just EMO!

2009-04-19T03:15:00.000-07:00

Feeling emo after watching "Handsome suit" while I am in the cinema, there is alot of memory fresh back. I do not know what happen to me. Who am I? Can someone tell me? I am very tire.. I am just not by myself. No matter who I am, I am still tired. I cannot find the thing I want. I just dun understand why. I would like to prompt a very sudden question to all guy that is reading on my blog. If.. if u were to be a gal, and your bf enlisted into NS, you and him had been through 2 years of hardship, what would u do? Wait for him? Flirt outside because u feel boared? break out? or othe? No offence to the ladies out there, I am just curious. Pls tag me the ans if u were like to share. ^_^

"TAKEN" is a great show!

2009-04-11T23:35:00.000-07:00

11/04/09, Saturday. Time flew. It is fast when time are within happy hours, Thursday book out and tml will be Sunday! Book in day. Anyway today went cine watch "TAKEN" with fiona, it was a very cool and great show I watched in this year, if you have not watch it, GO watch it! I bet your heart rate will rise! The story is about a guy that have this special skill like jame bone "the agent" He need to save her daughter from a group of bad guy who kidnap gals and sell them off to become prositude. He was mean when he want to save his daughter, but he is cool. I guess if I were to have a daughter, and my daughter being kidnap, I will be as mean as him just to save her.

The day was great anyway, we went for our lunch at Pasta Mania before our moive, and we went for a walk at Heeren. Before we could go back to cine, it was raining heavily, so we waited outside heeren and have a great chat. The rain got smaller in half an hour time, so we went back cine. ^_^

GOOD FRIDAY !

2009-04-10T23:30:00.000-07:00

10/04/09, Good Friday. Yes! is a good Friday, I booked out on Thursday afternoon, and it is a long weekend ^_^ I went to this thai pub located at clark quay. Went with Daryl, Chee Chuan, Lip Kai, Wai Long, Samson, Fish and Edward. We orded one bottle of Civas. The thai gals there will actually sing and dance for their performance, if u apperciate their performance, u could buy flower for them, and hang it on their neck. Their vocal is fantastic! I only can out 2 tumb up for their performance and their beauty. Today went to this Pentecost Methodist church with Guan Xu for Issac concert, he was playing his electric guiltar with his team on this good friday event. People there are friendly, but of course if u have ever went church before, u should know what is next after intro friends all this. They will then talk about history of Jesus then so on.. yup! haha..

around 5 plus we went off to Bugis for a walk. There is a new shopping mall over there! the air-corn inside power la! can freeze u. I bought a belt there, the movie ticket there is also selling at $6 only. Nice place to chill. We went to funan after that, guan xu want to find something that he want to buy, sort of I think is jacket ba, but the sales person told him dun have, I see they dun have heart to find de loh..

We then walk to Suntect for our dinner, we found this resturant quite unique, so we went in, guess what is that called? "SKINNY PIZZA" go and try one time if u have the graving for pizza, it is something very new, but to let u know, the food there is vegetarian, if u dun like too fatterning food andu like pizza so much, GO try it!! We orded a set for 2 meal. A spinach and Egg pizza, 2 Portobello Mushroom soup, and 2 glass of Apple cider (2% Alcohol). The meal was great. The most special about this resturant is, there is a DJ in the house, and it was a gal, a cool gal, never see her raise her head up to look at the customer, so concentrate on her equipment. The staff there was very friendly too.. wow.. I think the boss should give me some tips alr, I help them publish advertisment.

After dinner, we take a walk at suntect and then went to city link MPH Bookstores to look for some books. I bought 2 books that I quite interested, "The power of your subconscious mind" and a "thai phrase book". Reading books is also a way of entertaiment too sometime.

Around 10pm, we went home.. ^_^

Many places!!

2009-04-05T02:09:00.000-07:00

Sunday 5/4/09 1.43am. The whole day from morning until 10.30pm, never stop walking, beside in the morning I went sentosa sun tan with guan xu. We met 11am at Barbour front then we went to near by coffee shop eat, I think everyone should know where is it, is only beside the bus interchange. When we went there, the weather dun seem very good as I saw a patch of dark cloud flowing towards us, but luckily the sun is still stronger then the cloudy weather. We have our self tan for 2 hours and we set off to look for his beloved birthday present, as what is it, it is a secret la.. haha..

Start from vivo, we search and search, half way, we saw there is a fashion show, so stoped there and watched, took a few picture too, will post it soon to my friendster and facebook, they are reaally stylish. After that we walk to bugis, beside searching again, we went window shopping, saw plenty of nice tee and bottoms, so tempting to buy, we had our lunch aka dinner there too, we ate pasta mania. After that we walk to Suntect, we walk around, look here and there, we went to PS after tat, and u know who I saw?? the monopoly character, they having the game compitition there, so there is a guy wearing the monopoly suit taking picture with people.. haha.. I will post his pic up soon too. We then walk to orchard, after walking around, the last stop we went to kinokuniya, went there about 1 hour plus, browsing books.. dun know since when I love reading books.. haha.. maybe old le..

Around 10pm, we went home at different dircetion.. Bought dinner at coffee shop near my house.. hm.. left few hours I have to go gym le!! got to slp soon!!

Life still go on!

2009-04-04T01:50:00.000-07:00

04 April 2009, Sat Morning 1.30am. The feeling of home is always the best, while posting this blog, I am listening to some music to relax myself. Too much thing had happen during the past one month. A lot of things had changes my life also. Was quite emo for the pass one week, friends that are close to me should roughly know why am I so emo. Am I useless? until now I still can not think though and still felt hurt? Was reading some books recently about men and ladies, the content is describing what happen when a relationship had reach the stage where there is no more honey period also telling ask why men do this and that, why women do not understand and why they think different way, that had bring to a conclude after finish reading those books, in a relationship, u really need to understand each other, except who they are and cherish them.

I am surprise I found alot of the mistake in my past relationship was written in those book, I believe alot of people encounter same problems, it is just the way how u solve.

I was posted as a finance spect recently, dealing with purchasing and logistic, by changing my job scope, I had leave a bunch of my very good friends, also I moved my bunk. I felt lonely there, new environment, bunk only got 2 ppl, when never go for lunch or tea break, no more together, is just me alone. Though I can be alone as I am used to it already, but the sudden change I still need some time to adapt. Hopefully after all, I would not have the gap between them.

Later on going sentosa again for sun tan! haha.. sun is my energy! I took 3 weeks to recover from my sun burn previously!! haha.. End of the day life still go on, world still spin! tough time dun last, tough man do!

Speaker? Out camp run.

2009-03-21T02:31:00.000-07:00

21/03/09 Sat. Now is alr 2.24am. I had just finish packing up my room, change the pattern of placing everything just because of I bought a speaker today at sim lim with Issac, Guan Xu and Ah long. supposedly the model I want was ALTEC. In the end due to budget, I bought Logitech. The sound was not bad, I just teseted, the bass is heavy enough.. Wow! haha.

Anyway, yesterday, friday we got a out camp run, the whole company went to west cost, the first half was a 2.9km run and follow by game on the 2nd half. After everything, I book out at 11.00am, that was so shiok! then issac, ah long and me went to guan xu house to take a bath before we went to sim lim, although is a tired day, but I really enjoy it.

This morning I going to gym at 10am plus if possible, hopefully I am able to wake up early ba, already so late.. haha!

Emo!! Down!! Argh!

2009-03-13T20:40:00.000-07:00

13/03/09 Friday. Today is book out day, should be happy then nothing happen in this world, but today I feel very emo, very down. I just dun know why, it could be mood swing? In a life time, there is up and down, and I can say I am under this down condition recently. I am feeling just very unlucky, could it just be the fact of life? Fact of life some time really can make a person feel depress and disappointing. At this time I am preparing to go Phuture, actually I am not going any where and planning of staying at home, but my fren told me they have a change of plan from double'o to phuture, I doesn't want to go double'o at the first, coz was abit sianz.. too much army guy alr, I myslef alr army guy alr, still somemore army guy..

Recently I am learning some skill from friends and U-tube. My friend teaching me how to play a guitar, haha.. it is not so easy as I am think previously, but I think I am starting to get a hand on it alr. I learnt some C walk too from U-tube, it is interesting, just 2 human leg and able to dance so fantastic steps. Also it is not so easy.. Yawn.. Coming sunday have to book in real early as Monday have some out field exercise going on.. argh!

Sunday I going cafe delmar at sentosa in the morning, to get myself tan, hopefully is does not rain.

Sorrow Hidden

2009-03-13T20:25:00.000-07:00

妳的回話凌亂著
在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿
甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯
我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了

時間過了
走了
愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了
倦了
我哭了
離開時的不快樂
妳用卡片手寫著
有些愛只給到這
真的痛了

怎麼了
妳累了
說好的
幸福呢
我懂了
不說了
愛淡了
夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著
妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得

妳不等了
說好的
幸福呢
我錯了
淚乾了
放手了
後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

Pub or Club?

2009-03-07T09:34:00.000-08:00

07/03/09 Saturday nite. Doing some research on tattoo and protein powder product and in the mean time update my blog. I am so tire today, I went dbl'o yesterday until 4am than this morning 7am jiu wake up go gym alr, than got so many things to do until now haven sleep.. tml planning to go sentosa sun tant also, but looking for ppl to go.. 1 person go really abit weird, I had been sometime did not visit sentosa since 1 1/2 year ago.. miss the sun there.. haha.. I think sun is the same la ah.. what am I talking.. hm.. now a day wanna ask someone there also difficult.. all ppl got sort of reason..

Yesterday actually planning to go pub with zhen seng and wei li, but after scrolling around, we still decide to go dbl'o. When we entered alr 12am, but was not very cool.. full of beast.. opps.. sorry I mean guy la.. haha.. after getting chop, we went to have bunt gun tae than go in.. Yawn.. I am really tired..

Pass out loh!

2009-02-25T22:25:00.000-08:00

25/02/09, Wed. Today is my officially pass out parade at sispec as a specialist (sergeant). It was my second parade since BMT. During our parade it was raining, and I though it is just drizzling and will stop for awhile, but while I am standing still in the parade waiting the prize to be given to those awards winner, the rain becoming bigger, after not long there is also sun shining at us, that was a weird weather, but after half an hour the rain stopped, and there is a rainbow behind us.. I think it is a good sign? We had train this for 3 day 2 nite non stop beside lunch and dinner, it was so tough and finally is over. Tml will be reporting back to segei gedon camp for new unit. I will be uploading picture of the passing out parade on my friendster, if u are interested to see, u can go there and take alook ^_- . Hize.. today book out and tml must book in again.. I got so many things to do and tire yet there is no time for me.

Sergeant Finally

2009-02-21T21:36:00.000-08:00

21.02.09, Saturday. Yesterday I passed out as a sergeant at nee soon camp, after 7 month of struggling and endurance, finally I had finish my 1st stage of life in army, there is still 1 year plus more to go. After army alot of thing had changed in my life, even my precious relationship has gone. In army if u do have a relationship, u alr lose to ppl that have 5 day more than you do. The oldest you to said, try not have a serious relationship while u serving NS, coz 90% will run, I never believe that until I taste it myself. Beside reltionship had changed, slowly I became a regular clubber too. There is too much changes that by telling is unable to express fully. Next thursday I will be officially posted to a unit, a unit where I need to lead 6 men under me, power bring responsibility, as a sergeant, commander, we need to seek strive and excel.

Yesterday when I went to club, I realise something, something diff from what I knew abt the world, and it awaken me to face the fact of the world that is happening. The world wun just stop turning because of u.

Today I went to gym, I weight myself and I have a shock, I droped 2kg at this short period of time, recently I also quite stress regards alot of things, and I realise my hair r really slowly turning whiter and whiter, I bought hair dye (black) to return my hair colour to life, haha..

Start a fresh

2009-02-19T00:12:00.000-08:00

19.02.09, This week I having 3 days of nite off, it is great to have 8 to 5 in camp. Recently it had been tough for me, alot of uncertain and unhappy thing happen to me, without my parent and fellow fren inside the camp giving support and advices I think I had already break down and got depress. life is just full of up and down, just like an roller coaster, but I always believe one thing, thing that dun kill you make you stronger, although I had fail in my relationship after this 2year, but I learnt something. I will make use of all my time that I have now to upgrade and improve in myself, people who had been friend with me for long, you should know I dun give up easily and only get forward and never fall back. The only thing I regret in my life is only things that I dun give my best and now I got no chance to put in any more afford. I had tried my best shot in relationship but in the end it dun goes well than I think is either fate or both dun fit to be together. The world are round, what come around goes around.

Anyway tml will be my promotion day, I will be promote to sergeant, as a commander is to lead with pride, seek, strive, excel! haha.. I will be posting regulary from today onward.

Crystal Ball

2009-02-15T19:42:00.000-08:00

15.02.09, I went to watch a movie by Andy Lau and Su Qi. In this show andy lau always like to tell a story, it goes like this " Love is just like a crystal ball that fall and break, some people will go pick up more but some lesser, but as long you work hard and put in ur afford, you will sure get some." How much and hard I try, I still get nothing.. This world really consist "Hao Xin Hao Bao" ? I am waiting for it to happen.

Lonely Valentine day 09

2009-02-14T16:00:00.000-08:00

14.02.09, Happy valentine day to all of you. It is a lonely valentine day for me this year, also a hurtful day for me, this is the second relationship in my life broke off at valentine day. What is love sometime I asked myself, even I can ans one time, I still ask myself many thousand million time, what is love, it is just something u never find a exact meaning in it, do i think even u leave this world, u can bring the love together with u through heaven? will it last forever? when someone tell you he/she will love you forever.. will it be through or is just a sentence that we need to day in a relationship? How much you give in doesn't determine how long this relationship will last. Had been working hard this few year for it, but how much hard work I put in and try to hold on, thing just doesn't change. Not urs mean not urs, how much I try to help make no different, only sooner or later. May all the couple over the world stay happy and fortunate forever.

I had pass out from my training course, next friday promoting to sergeant already.. finally, it is tough for the past 6 month, going through hard ship.. hope eveything goes well for me after every high and low recently that come into my life.

Happy Chinese New Year 2009

2009-01-26T20:23:00.000-08:00

Today is Chinese New Year 1st day, years really pass very fast, it is already 2009.. I still rem when I was pri 6, that is the last time I see all my relative went to my grandpa house for gathering and celebrating, the day is really fun.. I miss my grandpa, but since my grandpa pass away when I was sec 1, 9 year I didn't go to any relative house bian nian already, all my relative seperated, argue wan argue, die wan die.. when never I see ppl go bian nian I feel so xin fu.. can go out with all new clothes, every year I buy new clothes but always got no chance to wear on the actual day, also dun know I buy for what, lolx.. Today is the first day of chi new, though of going out with my gf out for a movie, at least not so boring, but tml she is going to her relative house again.. ha.. Wed nite I will be booking in already.. maybe is also good, I can rest at home.. Over here I wanna wish everyone who know me a HAPPY CHINESE YEAR!!! May all your dream come true!!

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T17:06:00.000-08:00

Happy Merry Christmas! very fast the day had come to 2008 christmas and going to count down for 2009 already. This christmas I can say I am not very happy.. A lonely christmas, I was staying at home at the eve, coz is so cold outside and raining, so is the best to stay at home. Today is christmas but also my book in day.. still alone.. hize.. How I wish I could celebrate with someone I love, walking down orchard road, enjoy the feeling of christmas.. What u wish for this christmas? This christmas I wish my life will become better, without anything making me unhappy again..

From the day I enlist into army, already pass 6 month lo.. yeah!! another 1 year 4 month..

Operation

2008-10-31T21:08:00.000-07:00

It been awhile since I enlisted to NS I haven been updating my blog. Is already 4 months, it was tough, not really that fun I can say.. haha.. dun really like the life inside. I learnt to cherish the world outside more than the past, because when u were to be in a forest for many days, u will not hope much and will just wish that u will have a can of coke. This morning I went for a small operation to took off my wisdom teeth, this pain have been bothering 1 week, I can't slp well, can't eat well, can't control my temper, so I decided to see dentist at safti ocs camp. It was scary.. I took 3 injection to numb my whole left face, and the blood is spitting everywhere when they doing drilling and plugging my wisdom teeth, I can feel the blood spitting on my tough. Anyway I miss all my frens outside.. every single of u that know me.. hope I can ORD soon.. hee..

POP loh!

2008-09-11T14:50:00.000-07:00

POP LOH!! haha.. 9 weeks finally over since I enter Basic Military School. I will be having this 10 days block leave until I go to my new unit, I promoted from recruit to private le.. haha. . after my commander course I will either promoted to sergeant or official. I will like to share with you all my feeling in this 9 weeks of tough training. I was posted to C company when I first step into BMT school (cougar company) we are enhance batch in school 1, in school 1 there is over 6 company, but H,F and C is enhance batch.. between this 9 week our CO (The bigger rank in this company) is a ranger, mean he go through alot of tough training he train us as hard as the rest, out commander also push us hard to the standard where we can compare to the training in the future unit, all the company are always talking about our company..

I am very glad and happy I got to know a bunch of good army friend, also I got a very good and cooperated section that able to do things together, we have laughter, share problem.. I think compare to other section, I am very glad to be in section 3. Yesterday during our pop, I feel happy and feel sad.. been through so many hardship, all of us going to separated to different unit and no longer together..

When we taking photo after the parade, I took a very close look to every each of them, telling myself never forget them, because they have been together with me through all this shit.

I will try to post all the photo asap to my blog to show all of you.. :)

Will it be better?

2008-08-24T09:51:00.000-07:00

Almost more than a month since I enlisted to NS, I am now at tekong training as a enhance batch army, training to be leader, either sergeant or ocs. Seriously it is quite tough. After this 1 month plus, I seem to see alot of things changing outside.. even something that very close to me.. is that really change is the thing that never change? I miss my young age with no stress and I doesn't need to think too much, I will not get hurt too much, being innocent.. I have not been very happy in my life now after 2 weeks when I am enlisted to NS.. coz I see something changes in my life tat causes me hurt.. I know alot of things is not just asking pls dun change, and it will remain dun change.. I need to face the fact that the world still spinning.. I really hate this kind of feeling.. Also in army, I have seem alot of different kinds of ppl, also get to know myself more clearer who I am, how much ability I have.. I am feeling down right now, and dun feel posting too much. Hope everything will be better..

NS time

2008-08-07T14:14:00.000-07:00

It been around 1 month I guess for my last update.. sorry to the ppl who actually do come and view my blog. This post is to announce to everyone this coming Thursday I am going for NS le. So fast and I am so not willing to.. When I was in ITE I defer it coz I am going for my diploma cert, on that time I think still got 3 year.. still far away.. but it is just a blind of my eye.. I will be going in soon.. Actually recently after my graduation, I am busy working.. I been busy working more harder than I am in giordano.. I guess ppl tat I had approached should know I am a Financial Services Consultant.. I been working real hard.. helping client for high end service.. I do all kind of research just to convince the client and allow client to know more abt what they had bought previously and what is the different between mine and their previous wan.. But of course I went through some hardship, obstacles also.. so of the client put me aeroplane.. some bought already dun pay premium.. haha.. all kind of ppl.. but I am not angry or wat.. I learnt alot from all this experience.. oh ya and some really dun pick up ur call or even reply ur sms anymore.. tat was really.. ha.. amazing.. anyway tat's very normal for our industry to encounter this kind of problem.. Anyway I will keep working very hard.. ppl who had bought from me.. I wanna say thanks and I will continue to serve u better and better as my experience grow..
Anyone interested in saving or investment, dun hesitate to give me call, I will call u back very soon if u can't reach me.. NS ya.. haha..

Edison Ho
Financial Services Consultant
a member of American International Group
Hp: 91513244

I have received my enlistment letter!

2008-04-22T01:12:00.000-07:00

I have got my letter for enlistment.. july 10 2008, very soon! is just another 3 month, at last it has come.. but also dun know to happy or unhappy, I really will miss my family and the one I love when I am inside there, although can book out but the time is lesser and also will worry what will change outside when I am not around. Anyway tml is the 3rd day I had been transfer to tpy bsx.. I can said actually working there is good as time really pass fast and there is something for u to do, there is not much time for u to rest, and the bad side is.. em.. call me if u want to know more la.. haha.. bu fan bian saying it here. Last sat I went swimming with my sweetie.. arggh! I got sun burnt!! too long never expose to sun light that long period of time. Life had become so miserable to me sometime recently.. but I am trying to tell myself take it slowly.. In life I feel that alot of things we will never finish understand or maybe I rephase my words.. world is too complicated for us to understand.. sometime we think we are right but on another person opinion it is wrong or another way round.. that's why there is no peace in this world.. and causes I dun like u, u dun like me, I hate u, u hate me..

This few day I keep listening to FM96.3, very nice and very peaceful, if u like soft music and piano music. u can turn on to that channel, it can make ur mind very relax.. Recently I am also quite busy.. really no time to have my own personal time.. so ppl out there if u still have not so much thing to devoted in.. hao hao de cherish the time where u can be alone.. :)

Transfer from amk to tpy

2008-04-15T01:15:00.000-07:00

I going to transfer again from AMK BSX to TPY BSX.. Sianz! I only left few month and I need to go for NS le, why still wanna transfer me? I work amk so long already.. got gan qin de ma.. got to know so many ppl there le, now need to start all over again, some more later go over there got conflict how... Hize! Anyway it been sometime I didn't update my blog again, at this moment suddenly there is alot of memory refresh through my mind.. from the day I join giordano until now, ppl who from college become buddy and from buddy become good friend. Those ppl who help me, teach me, joke with me, share their problem with me treating me as their brother.. I am really very happy and appreciated.. especially the bunch of ppl who celebrate my 21th bd at ginza and ppl who come over to the bbq I organized.. thanks alot.
It been sometime since I leave secondary, than go ITE and now finally graduated from diploma. For another few years down the road, I hope to see myself in a very successful person and get marry to the person I love alot.. haha..

9 years fren meet up once again

2008-03-30T11:59:00.000-07:00

I'm quite happy and enjoy today, finally 9 years of friends from dun know how many decade of year never meet already, and today we meet up.. Jia Quan, Ying Long, Yu ting and Jia Lin. One things sad to said is andy, he unable to come.. hize.. sometime really feel sad for him, already a adult, but the father always dun let him go out, control him like animal. Anyway all of them and Jia quan gf came to my shop look for me today, and after I knock off we went to amk hub wat MOS burger. Erm.. somehow not worth it.. but ah long is vegetarian and there is not much choice so we went there. After the lunch we went town to watch (SHUTTLE). Actually this show is exactly same as the Thailand version, quite scary but also quite boring, coz I somehow already know the story. After that movie I went to buy a very very cute cartoon 7zai! haha.. my sweet heart like that cartoon alot la, so I bought it and went to center point look for her and hand it to her, today is our 1 yr 3 month anniversary..

Later all of us walk to taka to search for place where we can eat.. coz ah long vegetarian.. but we make so many round.. cannot find what suit all of us.. so we once again walk back to cine and ate at xin wan resturant , actually the food there is not bad, but I dun know why all of us eat dao act if everything is so er xin.. lolx.. I think got ah long influence.. while he eat.. he keep hize.. hize.. saying er xin la.. bla bla bla.. lolx.. but we have a gd time after all.. :) really hope to have another great with all of u soon again before I go for NS. The next time we go out, I hope yt and jl can be better ya? anyway we are already 9 years frens.. so dun be so xiao qi le ya? :) cya all!!!!!

Commando camp

2008-02-18T11:59:00.000-08:00

Today went commando vocational test with ming kheon, zhen zhao and anthoney. Early in the morning I need to wake up at 5.15am than meet them 6.15am at my house downstair nearly bus stop but that anthoney ah.. i know he will surely late or cannot wake up, called his hp a few time no one ans so I called his house, than his mum said she forgotten to wake him up. Anyway we meet up in the end near anthoney house coz he stay near by me so I and zhen zhao walk over.. we planned to take cab coz bus 969 is so full that, already few 969 passes by still so full but there is no cab??? impossible man..early in the morning so many book cab.. now I know so many ppl in singapore are rich. In the end we take bus down to tampinese met ming kheong than we took bus 29 to hendom camp. It was a long day as it end at 5pm plus.. there is phscyclogy test, medical examin, mentally test, 5 station physical test and last interview. I caught a cold at the mentally test as they done it in a very very very cold room.. when I was ITE I done it 1 time too.. that time I caught cold also.. that air corn is too strong that can freeze water to ice lae.. lolx.. Actually by right we able to go off at 3 plus.. but in our group there is 3 ppl including me who got inerview very long, but the other 2 are longer than me.. the interviwer keep cyclo us loh.. but I keep saying no.. god pls bless me not to got in there commando camp.. there is a life risk in it.. So in the end of the day I went home with heavy flu that make so uncomfortable now and causes me cannot work tml and lose $50.. If I am not wrong my enlistment will be on the April or June.. hopefully June.. :)

Finally I had end my poly life!!!!!!!

2008-02-16T01:18:00.000-08:00

God!!! Tell me that is real!!! Finally I finish my poly 3 year course.. it been so hard for me to climb all the way from ITE to poly and nw it is a end~~~ that kind of feeling I really dun know how to describe.. is a kind of statify.. Although it is not any university but it really take me so so hard to finish this path.. without my best fren anthoney, nez and darly I wun able to finish my poly course.. I really wanna thanks them.. Today after finish the last paper and when I walk out of this exam hall.. I know that will be the last time I stepping in and out there.. for the whole entire life I will never gonna step in anymore unless touch wood I fail and have to repeat.. but hopefully wun! anyway I shake everybody hand I saw that I know to farewell them.. I walk around the sch with nez to see where we still not yet been for the sick of there will be no more chance for us to be there.. kind of bu se de.. After the exam Nez, me and yane went to north canteen meet wen chonng and have a chit chat till around 12pm we went to grassroot to meet madam christin ong for lunch.. that is our com lecture.. I ordered a fish.. but I will never never order that kind of fish again anywhere.. I nearly puke.. so er xin.. after our lunch, christin drive her family car fetch me, gabriel, yane, hui wen, nez and eugene to amk hub and pin yan drove his own bike there.. we watch JUMPER.. wow that is really fantastis movie.. after watching u will hope how good it will be if that was you.. lolx.. we was so crazy abt talking abt tat jumper after that movie.. After that movie all the gal left to go home be a pig as everyone is so tired for this past few day for the exam. But we guy went to orchard, actually wanna go for a drinkn at night.. but the day is so early.. we walk around and around, we went TCC to have coffee.. went heeren HMV, and in the last we stoped at far east long john, we tok a seat there talk for a hr and i see everyone seem so tired.. the eyes is so red including me, so I ask them the last last time, u all sure wanna go?? they didn't ans me but a facial ans.. "I am tired la.. dun go la" haha.. so we called it a day. When I went off I met my gal at orchard first cabinet. Before she come, one by one they leave.. in the end last with nez.. when i said gd bye to nez.. I really feel very very sad.. after this farewell I really dun know when will I see him again.. he been a very gd fren to me for the whole last semester.. we share problems together, study together, joke together.. buddy I will never forget u man!! thanks alot alot for all the help in my study.. My best regards to u no matter in love, career and family.. I will cya soon.. keep in contact buddy!! ^_-

I feel so helpless

2008-01-21T01:56:00.000-08:00

This post will be very short, I just wanna post how I feel now. I really feel very lost, I dun konw what I should do, I feel very stress, I feel there is things that making me feel very uneasy. I know guy must not shear tear.. but I feel so hurt.. I feel so helpless..

Time are precious

2008-01-19T03:04:00.000-08:00

Left 3 weeks to graduate from poly. Time really pass very fast, I still rem last 3 year I was still in ITE, our life is so short and when you dun cherish your time and so the right thing, life will be just wasted, I regret alot of thing in my life, although ppl said we dun look back when things had pass, but that is just lying to our selve, coz we know deep inside is what we had done and what we had missed in the past and causes us to be regret. If I were to back to primary sch, I will try my very best to study hard and get to Acdemic or express so I dun need to waste my 2 year in ITE. I left not much time and I gonne be enlisted for NS, in this years I really dun know what will happen to me or what will changes my life, hopefully everything will be fine..

Any Chi new year is coming, helping my family up for the spring cleaning, although I dun do much but it is still very tire, as I need to do my assigment & need to work, at night still need to help them.. haha.. AMK shop had renovated, it is super trend and nice.. from a uni sex giordano shop had converted to BSX, giordano blue star X, I had taken a photo of the shop today, today is the grand opening..

If u had been to the street giordano at AMK, you can actually see how much changes to this shop, from a very class C giordano had changes to a Class A shop, our item is more on the street wear.. our item will be better and better each 2 weeks as we will come in new stock and it will be a different design and style.. come take alook if you are free.. ^_-haha.. I promote like this is my shop..

Life

2008-01-02T14:04:00.000-08:00

Our life is always unpreditable. Sometime we dun choose to walk that direction but destiny always make us have no choice. Life will always be like a windmill compass, we point at the direction where wind want us to go. Sometime we would like to change ourselve in order not to hurt ppl beside us, but we will never be changed as there is a story go..

There is a scopian want to pass a river,and he saw a swan swim pass.

SCORPIAN: Hi swan! can you give me a ride pass the river?
SWAN: No! you will sting me if I will to give you a ride.
SCORPIAN: If I were to sting u, u will sin and I will die with you, so y will I be so stupic?
SWAN: Hm.. u have a point. Okie! get up.

As when the swan swim the scorpian, the scorpian stinged the swan. Before the swan died, it ask..

SWAN: Why.. y.. u want to sting me?
SCORPIAN: Sorry I am a scorpian and forever is a scorpian.

We can never change ourselve, as we need to find someone that able to accept who we are.
We always live in a world where there is selfish, jelousy, anger and happiness. But we always never notice all this are actually linked. Without selfish, there is no happiness, when we are happy we will be jelousy and when someone try to have it, anger come along. Ppl outside saying jesus will come someday to destroy the earth as, he make a mistake to created human. As human itself are evil.

How will we able to protect ourself and in the same time not to hurt others..

We always got thousand of thoughts and hundred of ambition but it always changed by the enviroment and ppl among us. But what really mean alots in our life? Money? Love? Friendship? Career? From the day I thought abt it, life tell me happiness in our life is most important. We can earn alot but if u r just forcing urself to work because u are already sick of ur work, will u be happy?
You can have relationship as easy as ABC but if u are not happy with it, will it last long?
Life are just so unpredictable.

Merry Christmas!

2007-12-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas! today after working around 2pm I went down to PS find my gal and we went to her relative house, they have a mini party, it was so fun loh.. so many children haha.. I love children.. they are so cute.. from age of 1, 3, 6, 7, 9, and 10 onwards.. wa.. so long never play with children le.. at the start they keep a distance from me.. coz they dun know who the hell is this guy suddenly appear at their big fianlly.. but I manage to gather them together and tell them story.. so glad and happy that seeing whole bunch of children seat infront of u waiting for u to said story and tell them jokes.. haha.. Also her relative have a present exchange between each other.. but we was too late to exchange the gift together, when we reach there everyone almost finish exchange le, but we still manage to exchange something.. than around 8 we went off. We went to north point bought dvd back home to watch but my this little gal fall asleep when I went to bath.. hize.. In the end never watch..

Early Christmas!

2007-12-21T00:00:00.000-08:00

21/12/07, I went to a early christmas party with my class mate.. I think this is the first time I been out with classmate celebrating christmas.. I was glad that before I leave nyp there is still some event like this I ever have.. But I was abit dissapointed that nez didn't come along, he told me he will have together with us on that day but end up how I called him, he didn't event pick up the phone or leave down a msg.. hize.. bro next time dun promise if u are not going ya?

Liu yu present & Helmi

anyway that day was great, we went to watch national treasure and went to sukae buffet for our dinner.. due to one of our member helmi need to go off first, so he have his present exchanged before he left. When we went there for the seat we cannot go in.. lolx.. they need to be so strict mah, because we make a adviance booking at 8pm, and on that time is only 7.15pm. So went to Heeren take a walk first and took a few pic.

From left, Maggie, Hui wen, Stella, Liu Yu & Yane

From left, Gabriel, Me, Chen Huew, Eugene, er.. forgot the name le.. sorrry.. than Yeow Huat & Ping Yan

Anyway I was so full, I gave $30 for my entrance fee, of course I pin ming eat eat eat.. haha.. eat till nearly vomit..

After our dinner, all of us have our present exchanged.. although all the present have a budget, but the process is really fun..

Maggie

Yeow Huat

Ping Yan

Chen Huew

Edison (Myself) lolx..

Yane

Eugene

Gabriel

Hui Wen

Stella

We than went to outside taka for photo taking.. there is alot of ppl taking photo there.. it was so warm loh.

Busy busy!!

2007-12-04T14:25:00.000-08:00

It been sometime I didn't blog le.. I was so busy recently, working, exam, courses, study, acc my gal.. hize.. really no time for myself.. miss the day I am with my frens drinking, go for movie, go jalan jalan.. haha.. that was really some memory.. but time really change alot of thing.. some of my frens that we use to share problem and go out already no more the same as last time, they have their own things to concentrate or even some of them had comflict between each other.. my drinking frens also no longer ask me out for drink.. it could be they quit drinking already or they know I am always so busy.. hm.. next week my common test coming, my sch didn't give any study week and my time become so tight and have to give up working hour.. but sometime working less will also cause ppl behind gossip.. but who cares! lolx.. I miss my free time.. I hope in the future for what I have work hard now will repay what I want next time.. let's bless for me :)

My 21th Bd Eve

2007-11-12T00:00:00.000-08:00

Today is a very happy happy day as it is my Bd!! 21th Bd!! my gal and I organised a bbq at east coast, actually she done alot alot more than me la, coz this is a present she gave it to me.. so touched.. :) but eveyday was so tough as that is not only ordering, go research, planning.. we must carry alot alot of things there, luckily my fren anthoney came to my house, help me to carry and together with me and my gal we take cab down and my another gd fren daryl and his gf wait for us there to help us to carry, thanks godness.. without them I think die ah.. we them already carry till like toutise le, without, I think hize... haha.. so togther we 5 of us when there set up fire all this.. around 7 plus, the 1st group came.. My giordano frens... but very unlucky that there is somemore of them need to stay over at shop tonight to change over the image.. as they are inchargers.. so concident is my bbq day €@#$%!! haha

Than come my school mate..

After that my ex sch and bf plus DT

This ppl are the person who help me up this afternoon

Last but not least my dearest gf

Those ppl that didin't come, u know who u are la ya.. u all better replace me a present asap ah.. my 21th bd lae.. hee.. I prepared the food for 30 over plus ppl, end up only 20 plus ppl came..
but some of them really dissapointed that didn't came and I expect them to come :( anyway I am very happy today.. thanks alot for all of u came and those who bought me present and last but not least the VERY BIG THANKS YOU goes to MRS.HO (Bao Bei) :)

Life

2007-10-16T00:07:00.000-07:00

Sch reopen loh!! sch reopen since 8/10/07, but I only free to post today :( so sad to said that.. I was really busy since after my last post, on my holiday time, I keep working and working, once got free time will be meeting my gal. Now sch start le, that's mean I got extra things to follow up, sch, gym, work, relationship.. hm.. dun know that is good or bad, but I can said for this past few month I had busy till I got no time to waste and that is mean I cherish every min in my life and I think that time still not enough for me. Alot of thing are changing as time pass by, think back 6 month ago I was in fyp with a bunch of gd fren, and 3 month ago I was having attachment at a hell place and with my endurance finallly eveything had over and come to sch reopen, making new fren, met back all my old gd fren too.. It is really great to saw them back, but my new class seem to be abit too.. hm.. I can use stranger this word? got a few gal seem to be like dun wanna mix around with us, and our class seperated into different group, when having break or after sch, all are in their own group, but lucky to said I have a large group :P all of them are very nice..

Anyway my life been walking through 21 year le, I had see so many thing slowly change and getting differnt experience, sometime it is really so tired, and in some moment I really can stund there, coz I really dun know what I choose now is ir the right way to walk anot or in my future what I plan for will it come true or will it be the right way for me to go for anot? there is alot of delima inside my mind..

But I wanna thanks to ppl that had contributed in my life, frens, family and my baby gal.. without them I may not standing on where I am.. thanks.. I wun forget all of u that as long u been passes by my life..

Zheng Rong Bd!

2007-09-11T10:46:00.000-07:00

Haha.. today was a happening day, one of my giordano fren bd, he is a first incharge at amk hub, so he organised a bd bbq at consta sand resort, and he invited quite alot of ppl, it is really difficult to see so many incharger together, as today got Jerry and is gal fren Cherish also a incharge, Francis , Alex, Zheng Rong, Wei Bin. Quite alot of them bring their gf, although I am not a incharge, only a senior par timer but of course I got bring my gal along too.. haha.. Suddenly I realise something, all working in giordano wan, their gf all quite pretty de.. included mine... wahaha... "must said la, if not my gal will angry" lolx.. Today is a enjoyable day.
Tml is Giordano D&d, should be another enjoyable day ba.. haha..

2007-08-17T03:36:00.000-07:00

Omg! I can't believe it! today is END OF MY ATTACHMENT already!! wahahahahaha! LOLX~ yeah! yeah! finally I get off from the earth hell.. hm.. So long I had not yet been update my blog, partly also because of that stupic Attachment! I learnt nothing related to what I study too and work there like a dog but paid is lesses than the staff than 3 times.. I doing almost what they arw doing without any sufficeint help and some risk of my life.. pui! pui! what is that..

Attachment sux!

2007-07-13T09:45:00.000-07:00

okie.. Is time to update my blog. man! Attachment quickly end!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am enough of it!!! How come ppl attachment can enk enk che che (free free) but I am so busy and also must swollow all the things that I should need to face..
Today I have a argue with my person incharge (engineer), I am damn angry when he said something that provoked me! I can't endure anymore, so I confronts him.. I told him I am here to learnt and not to so something out of my area, and more . . . I dun mind working extra that is out of my learning area, but it is too much.. knnbccb* everyday go work, see his face only, sianz.. Coz I know he will said, Ho! Ho! , help me scan this, that, fax this, that, take this, that, and somemore all the machine is not inside the lab, u must go down the stair one time and one time.. He gave many more F%$#ing that will make u damn high! idiot !!

Luckily after that I met my xin gan bao bei... she make me smile :) thanks dear..

Help me!!

2007-06-18T21:02:00.000-07:00

Help!! arggh.. I really can't stand it anymore.. I am going to stress to die.. I am really very stress and tired.. The place I attached is really a hell.. hell where being toture.. there is evil ghosts there toturing me.. I can't stand that idi*t Engineer already.. he didn't treat me like a student.. he treat me like his dog.. I got no time to rest even when a task is finish and yet he ask me to do other things.. and the way he speak and ask just like commanding a dog.. nbcb!! the world everyday so many ppl die.. why dun see him die.. pcb!!! knn!!! I really feeling like mia.. how come ppl attachment can slack and yet I work like a dog.. tha Sat sun still need to work long shift.. plus plus all my close colleuge there transfer already.. now amk left me and all the staff that can't really have the same topic to talk.. surely going to be very boring.. I got no motivation at all in everything le... arggh... pls time! pls pass faster and allow me to get out of the hell place... pls~

Attachment!

2007-05-30T01:11:00.000-07:00

I was so sick pass few day.. my gf also sick.. I sick still must take care of her.. lolx.. Last two day is my first day of attachement.. so sianz loh.. I miss the day at fyp..

And now I am all alone le.. coz I posted to a company that I am just all alone.. no more all my fren like in fyp.. :( dun know how to describe the ppl there loh.. just feel incomfortable and the place is so far away.. hopefully after few day I will get over it ba.. anyway today I didn't go attachement too.. I took mc, not feeling that well..

Liyun, endang, yi ru, joel and vincemt!!!! you all musy Jia You ya!!!! all the best.. cya soon!!

2007-05-21T17:02:00.000-07:00

Just got myself a new hair cut, is actually a new hair style.. anyway not feeling that gd this recently, was trying to hop job, so went to courts sell HP printer.. for last weekend, for the first day only I see really cannot make it, coz there is only 7 HP printer, and 2 of it no commission at all, from what I know there is more than 30 over harware for me to sell.. hize.. Now I understand simple is the best.. Maybe at the moment I hope to much in earning more cash, so thinking of changing and get better pay.. after comparing still think giordano is the best.. Maybe at the moment I should stay as what I am ba.. Today also saw one of my giordano colleuge telling me now they are finding more giordano part time, and there is 2 pending for my outlet le.. think going back ba..

Anyway FYP going to end soon.. no longer have them listen to my sorrow whenever happen last day.. and no more talking cock.. haha.. really glad and happy to met them in this sch.. For so long in nyp, they are the best among all... thanks alot frens.. Yi Ru, Li Yun, Endang, Joel and vincent. Vincent is one of our DT, feel sad for him... so many ppl bully him in sch.. as a DT should be respect by other..

Attachment starting soon, hopefully they will attach me to some compant that got potential and not so far away.. if not I need to wake up damn early..
All the best to myself.. lolx..

Is that so difficult..

2007-05-10T17:09:00.000-07:00

Do u believe that in ur furture the person u married will not be the one u loved most in ur life? I dun understand y the person u love most can't be together or forever.. In a relationship if both of u dun know how to compromise than it will be very difficult to be together or if u dun understand each other it is also difficult to be together. Will u believe sometime the wrong person come at the right time, and the right person come in the wrong time.. isn't that pity or I can said wasted? when that person is right but just not in the right time and end up no being together.. that is fated? It is so difficult to built up a relationship and also diff to let go when u must.. hopefully girl that will be spending the entire life with me together will understand me and also can compromise well with me.. coz it is really really very tiring arguing everyday.. all maybe 28day in one month.. really tired..

Where is my pay??

2007-04-30T10:49:00.000-07:00

Damn sianz.. supossinly pay should come 28th, but now dun where they co*k up, pay delay to 30th, and today already 30th, I go see my bank they still not yet bank in money.. I going to bankrup soon if they still they transfer the money in, I need those money so urgently.. argh..

Time really not enough for me.. Got so many things to be done.. stress abt this and that.. When can I have a peaceful life?

Actually dun think I will quit le, coz I got a feeling my fren that side gone case.. hize.. dun wanna trouble her also, if really cannot than is okie for me to stay at Gio.

Feeling of amk

2007-04-23T16:25:00.000-07:00

Since the day I transfer to amk, I have been working 3 day over there, I really miss all my fren at NP and miss the shop too.. I feel so bored at amk and I feel very uneasy.. really sianz.. recently I also facing financial problem, I got a fren she is helping me into hp company doing IT, as a promoter, over there at least able to earn something, hopefully I am able to go there smoohtly also to adapt the ppl there, coz I am afraid I dun know anything and they will kind of step on me.. as for me and shi hui.. we are more fine.. we dun really argue everytime already as we did really said out everything and make thing more understanding and clear..

Anyway my fyp left 4 weeks already, after that will be attachment.. really fast.. to me alot of thing I need to start making decision and plan alot.. really dun know what will happen next.. can said scary and anxious to know.. but :( I am ageing.. I DUN WANNA OLD!! sianz!! lolx.. I wanna stay cool and healthy.. hahahaha..

Never forgetable memory in Gio

2007-04-15T11:59:00.000-07:00

Today is my last day working at np giordano.. I feel so bu she de.. so sad.. I been there 1 yr plus, over there really give me alot alot of memory.. also given me experien, money, frens and lastly relationship.. Although I transfered to amk, but I may not working anymore as I got a better offer as I may get a higher pay.. in the mean time I take this opptunity to leant some new thing.. hopefully it goes smoothly.. since this post is my last post abt np shop, I will like to thanks and plot out all the ppl from the very start when I worked..

1st incharge: Rina
2nd incharge: Mei Ling
FT: Donny, andy, azira
PT: Ain

follow by

1st incharge: Sandra
2nd incharge: Mei Ling
FT: Donny, azira
PT: Ain

follow by

1st incharge: Lynn
2nd incharge: Ming Ming
FT: Donny, Rose
PT: Aisha

follow by

1st incharge: Rina
2nd incharge: Ming Ming
3rd incharge: Noreen
FT: Donny, Rose
PT: Aisha, Ayu

follow by

1st incharge: Jerry
2nd incharge: Noreen
3rd incharge: Eiz
FT: Donny, Rose

PT: Ayu

follow by:

1st incharge: Jerry
2nd incharge: nurul
FT: Donny, Rose

follow by:

1st incharge: Sally
2nd incharge: nurul
3rd incharge: rizal
FT: Rose
PT: Grace

follow by:

1st incharge: Nizal
2nd incharge: nurul
3rd incharge: rizal
FT: Rose, Jason, Shi Hui
PT: Grace, Jace

follow by:

1st incharge: Nizal
2nd incharge: Diana
3rd incharge: Rose
FT: Rose, Jason, Shi Hui
PT: Grace, Jace

follow by:

1st incharge: Nizal
2nd incharge: Diana
3rd incharge: Rose
FT: Rose
PT: Grace, Jason, Jace, Shi Hui, Wind

Thanks to all of u.. all of u bring me sour, pain and joy.. without all you, it wun be having the current edison..
All the best to NP giordano and all u guys! best future ahead.. dun forget to keep in contact..

On my right ming ming and jerry.. use to be my first & 2nd incharge and also my gd fren now.. never forget this two gd fren :)

This is when christmas is coming.. all of us need to be in red.. but I am unie.. hahahaha.. coz I am boss..This is when our full team going for the late celebration of christmas bbq organised by giordano and on that day is where we get our pay.

This is where we having our bbq celebration.. lolx all so ugly.

One of the day where all of us wearing black.. very concident.. starting from my right is niza, jace, rose, grace and jason.

This is stock take day, where this is our new team as there is wind beside jason, aunty shirely beside niza.. oh ya.. behind me is my baby princess wild piggy shi hui.. ^_^

Finally my last day at np..

Farewell np.. farewell to np customer too.. ^_^

2007-04-02T11:47:00.000-07:00

It is a raining day.. making me so sleepy inside the lab as I am having fyp now. Recently feel so unlucky, also in the money wise abit pou cai.. Shi hui also transfer to hgm, dun know to be happy or sad, coz whenever working together always will arugue coz of jelousy.. now she is not here anymmore, so wun argue that much agian.. but she is there and I dun know wat is going on there.. hm..

Anyway the time was real fast as it as pass one month for my fyp, also my time was so pack that I got no time to rest well.. it is a gd thing or a bad thing? It been a long time I didn't go out with my fren like donny, ming, jerry, sarah and many more.. miss them too.. hope there is time ba..

In this lab, my this group of fren was quite nice and friendly.. they are also caring.. compare to my previous.. hize..

Hope everything will go smoothly.. :)

tired!

2007-03-22T17:39:00.000-07:00

Why can't life make it for simple for me? recently I am so fucking tire! no matter is time constrain, family, money, love.. everything goes bad for me.. I am really fed up.. y just can't they understand me? y just can't her understand me? I am so stress.. feeling like giving up everything.. If I were to have money now I believe alot of thing will be solve too.. I am working so hard to achieve my goal, my target.. my health seem like going down hill.. just dun understand y they r like this.. just no one know wat exactly I am thinking.. no one can ever solve the dark side of me.. I am always trap there.. thought of someone may bring me out.. but today I am really depressed and dissapointed..

Sianz lae

2007-03-15T13:30:00.000-07:00

It been a long time since my last post.. hize.. so sorry to those ppl I have necglet, I am really damn busy and tired.. Now is the 3th year le, than this turn having fyp.. from mon-thur is 8.30am to 6pm, only fri is 8.30am to 5.30pm, thn after work must go work at 6.30pm.. than sat and sun also must work long hour.. bo bian.. money is so important.
So ppl that I neglect pls forgive me ya? hee.. After this 3month fyp I still got 3 month attachment.. sob.. jia you!!!

Finally

2007-02-28T22:19:00.000-08:00

finall my exam end already.. feel released.. haha now is worry abt result le, hm.. sianz lae tml start work le.. my shop alot of ppl will be leaving soon.. shi hui and jason starting poly, nurul will be being transfer and jace already transfered to wm.
I feel lack of something.. will it be care? hm.. :( maybe I am use to be alone le.. although now without any care but I still okie loh..

Actually alot of thing in our life dun come wat we plan for.. I use to be stubborn with this kind of thing, thinking I can go agianst it.. but is not.. sometime thing is really fated to be like this mean is like this.. but if u can get the point.. when thing dun come wat u wan.. tell urself that is natural and fated.. it will help alot..

Sometime I also dun know is it the past change me to become sort of cold blooded or is it fated for me to change to wat I am now.. I really hope one day the person the I love alot and the person who love me alot can allow me to realise I am too sensitive or maybe can prove me wrong abt wat I think towards love and ppl..

Pig Year!

2007-02-20T07:59:00.000-08:00

Happy Chi New Year! hm.. to most of the ppl may be happy, enjoy and fun.. for me.. arggh.. Da Nian Chu Yi my dad give me a fu*k*ng face! damn it.. coz of the old thing again.. every new year the same thing.. he is too stubborn and over sensitive already.. but one thing I was quite happy is that she went over my house to stay for 2 day 1 night.. sound like resort ya? Anyway this few week I didn't go to gym.. only train it at home.. so uncomfortable.. tml must go pump a hard wan already.. actually thing didn't go that smoothly for me.. there is alot of obstacle.. making me headache..Hope this new year will bring me gd luck, money fortune and gd healthy.. ^@@^ oih oih..

Jia you!

2007-01-19T01:20:00.000-08:00

Today suppose to have replacement nite class.. but I didn't go, not feeling tat well plus my partner didn't go, so go also no use.. coz only he can explain to me how really the thing work.. coz is abt something electronic.. After went home and bath, I went straight to bed and slp.. really not enough slp plus feel so restless.. coz not feeling well.. yawn~
Exam is around the corner, before chi new year and after chi new year.. sianz lae.. how come like this.. how I suppose to enjoy my chi new year.. anyway everything is under my control.. ya btw I going to step down for my chairman.. really no time to commit.. if continue to be chairman, someone behind me will start to gossip again.. better give it to ppl that can really commit..

After my exam I gonna have my attachment le, but heard my fren said next year will have either attachement first than half month study or the other way round.. but hope the study come first.. coz I still need to work to save money, if not I need to quit le.. or tougher abit loh, sat, sun go work.. that's mean the whole week will be occupied.. but is okie.. as long money come in.. haha..

Jia you!

Long story

2007-01-05T12:10:00.000-08:00

Yawn~ early in the morning.. suppose to go sch.. but over slept for this morning lesson, than nez called me not to go for the rest, coz alot of ppl not going.. anyway my lesson end 1pm.. and I awaked 11am.. hize.. forget it. Today is the second day of start sch after the 2 week holiday.. really sianz lae.. dun know why feel so tire of study anymore.. tire of everything too.. somemore sometime in the morning wake up suppose to go gym wan.. but also lazy le.. always only train at home.. how?? how come I become like tat.. is it beacause I am old already.. lolx..

Anyway, on the 28/12/06 my shop ppl all went to the territory celebration of posted christmas at downtown east..

This pic is taken after we have check our pay at yishun mrt.. damn it! the account co*k up, never send the rest of my pay to me, in the end they only transfer few hunderd to me..

Than we went there with bus 969 to tampinese, than took cab there.. so boring.. go till there all the bbq ended, somemore no one really bbq, than all of us never eat plus still need to give money.. pt pay $5, ft pay $10, around 12 plus all of us exchange present..

Than after that we went to nurul house (my 2nd incharge) over nite.. actually jason also going but end up he changed his mind.. so only left with jace, grace, shi hui and me.. hm.. that was a romance nite so how.. lolx..

Merry christmas

2006-12-26T01:16:00.000-08:00

Quite sometime didn't blog something.. So today again I will said alot again. Past this few day keep raining and raining.. really sianz.. too many day of raining already.. anyway this few day sale very very gd.. the customer too much.. too much till the shop float with ppl.. till I cannot see the staff and my stock.. hm.. christmas eve and christmas.. I got work.. as ppl outside celebrate :( sob.. sob.. hm.. anyway nothing special na.. also one day..
Today christmas day, our team bought for each other present and exchange.. one of my colleuge bought me a perfume.. so touhed.. really very very long no ppl give me any present already.. plus she take the initialtive to put in her heart to choose this present, coz she know I always like to spray perfume on my body first before I go out to selling floor.. But I am so guilty in the pass I treat her abit bad.. keep on bully her.. And now she quite le, today is her last day.. So sorry hana~ thanks for ur present.. I like it alot alot alot.. Merry christmas to u.. may all ur dream come true..

riza wedding..

2006-12-18T03:02:00.000-08:00

Nothing special abt today.. but today sale very gd.. 6k. Dun know wat wind blow so many customer come today.. our staff today was all so busy.. everyone serve with their best.. After work we went to riza house to congrat him.. coz he married.. went there eat.. with grace, niza, nurul

Dun need I describe, I believe u also can see who is him too ya. so beside him is his wife.. and we standing behind.. start from nurul, me, niza and tat lazy grace.. keep saying tire and wanna slp.. for the start she work in giordano untill now.. hize..