Monday, January 30, 2006
What day is today? why everyone is celebrating? I saw couple, ppl with gd frens, happy family taking orange, gong xi fa cai here and there.. lolx.. wat am I doing? a normal, a very normal day... I got no relative at all.. the only relative I can go but cannot go, why? there is some problem that I can't explain simply just over here.. I never never felt so lonely before on chi new year in my life.. never.. even chi new year eve, I dun even wanna see the count down on the tv, I force myself to go slp before 12am.. y? y?y? y amI doing all this? I dun know.. I only know I really hate chi new year.. I dun wanna have that kind of feeling make me turn very sour... tml.. is the second day of new year.. I still also need to stay at home.. my fren? gd.. fren.. not free, said go out, in the last? pui.. and someone said come my house bian nian.. lolx.. forget it, actually before all this, I already know will happen this kind off thing.. Today went out with my family watch
, very nice show but with the wrong ppl, why, because there is someone I dun really like, my bro.. I really dun know why I getting more and more hate him.. I know ppl who read this will said as a bro why do I need to do this.. the story is too long for all of u to know.. so I am really tire of everything.. I felt lost.. I really felt lose.. even study.. I really dun know how to said.. I gonna lost my way out of working and studying.. coz Is really too tire working and studying.. I can't really concentrate, I gonna lost control already.. somebody pls help me.. pls~ what can I do, I cannot quit my job anyway.. ppl who know me well, should know why I can't quit.. what is the world about? when can I see the beautiful world agian? when my life will fill with colour agian????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:52 AM
Thursday, January 19, 2006
argh~ what happen! what happen! what had I ate? I got food poison... I went toilet more than 12 time a day.. my leg got numb.. than feel like wanna vomit, headache and fever, So today went to see doc, never go school. Chinese new year is coming.. maybe this chinese new year to me have no more special to me.. I really dun know why, as age goes by, new year really quite sianz.. maybe que le xie se muo? dun know! dun know! somemore all my relative, die wan already die, argue wan argue, no more contact wan no contact.. so... wat so special about chinese new year? really miss when I was young that kind of chinese new year enviroment..Life is full of changes.. in this world nothing is belong to you, believe?
You born with two bare hand and leave with two bare hand.. what we work hard in our life is just a chen jin yong you and not tian chang ti jiu... even love? sometime I really really confuse of life.. should I do this or should'nt I?
When I have problem, who will really care? when I sick, who will really care and worry? only a few person, and that's my family.. Really sick of life..
But as what I told my fren alot of time, happy or not happy also a day, why not try to be happy? must kan kai yi dian sometime, as ur life wun get so fustrated.
Anyway, struggling on my personal project.. somemore my semester haven do... what is my group and I doing? semseter project surely last min work wan.. hize..
♥Oh, so vintage... 6:08 AM
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
After one week fever... I finally can go gym already, so uncomfortable the whole week.. also I bought a new hp (w800i) yeah! finally change... but one thing bad is I need to upload all my mp3 or pic from my fren house, cox my house come like shit! so tire of life.. I realise something, why do I always so unhappy everyday? coz I take everything so serious, so from today onward, things come I take, dun come, so let it go.. coz sometime things is not urs, u force ur self to get it, is very very xin ku de... Just wanna concentrate on my career..
Life is full of lie and fool.. when to take thing seriously and when not, we need to know... Do u all understand what I wrote? I think only ppl have been through wat I went through will understand ba.. hee..
♥Oh, so vintage... 5:25 AM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
The world is fill with reality, I had try my best not to think that way, but.. fact is still the fact.. now I know why ppl hope that the world is peace, is not just only war peace but human being to human being without and slefishness & other kind of bad thinking..
Anyway, yesterday and today I got an test, hm.. quite confident.. hee.. Well still the same feeling from the past.. loneliness, now is I myself sitting in elp doing things.. & where is all my fren.. they are sitting on their underwear at south canteen.. na~ dun wanna talk abt it anymore...
oh.. I wanna buy W800i, any comment? is this phone gd? I find that quite gd after my research, think I gonna buy this phone already and changing my line to singtel, coz... starthub never give me any benifit as I had use them for already over 2 year.. even voucher also dun have... wat the... okie.. I think is my time to go south canteen to have some breakfast... update it when I have further news.. hee.. ^__-
♥Oh, so vintage... 9:10 AM
