Tuesday, September 14, 2010
3.40am Tuesday Morning. Came back from drinking again. This few days, I have been drinking and smoking. Thinking and thinking, I think is time for me to let go. Say goodbye to past 8 months Edison. Should start afresh. Recently I met up some friends, this group of friends use to be my primary school friend, and some use to be my basketball mate last 6 years. Never never know they can be so supportive and encouraging. From them I learn a lot of things.. not about relationship, but about life and about what a real man is.
Honestly I'm really upset about how this relationship broke off.. I dun believe it, it was a shock to me. I never know a human can turn so heartless, so cold blooded. Not to saying bad about anyone, but from this relationship, I realize, this world can be very cruel but yet very fair.
I have been drinking and sleeping very late for a while, as long dun hit 4am, I will not turn in. But all this will be soon over.. I have to get going already.. To fulfill my dreams! For myself, for the future and for my parents.
And thanks to all my good friends that have been real supportive not matter in facebook, over the phone or in in front of me.. Thanks! ^^
The next post, it will be a better one!
♥Oh, so vintage... 3:46 AM
Friday, September 10, 2010
Ever since the last update, I have been real busy. Busy with work, my love one, interview, my fitness blog and some friends. I have too much to do and now I lost control of everything. I even lost what I love and need most.
To be frank, my relationship just ended. 09/09/10 , so hurt so hurt, yet so numb. I dun know why, this feeling go deep down my heart, yet I can be normal outside but not inside. Been 8 months with her, I think those months are my very precious months. From I ORD soon till I found my new job, she have been with me, supporting me.
We do what a relationship should do, we plan our future, we are just like little husband and wife, buy stuff in Ntuc, Seng Song and even Cold storage. We share same ideas, same hobbies and same interests. Those are what I really think this relationship may last or even forever.
Everything happen in just a moment I never expect. What will come, it will come, never know some how down the road, our character happen to have conflict. Trust issue start to come in, time issue, stress issue. Never allow me to have the time to react, everything start to change in my life.
Holding on to this, if you ask me, how I am feeling now? It hurts, It is 100% hurt. But from this relationship, I learn somethings again. Thanks you Josephine. I love your name, I love you. Let's walk towards our own future and strike the best. Thanks you for all the time and effort you had placed in, I love your cooking too. ^^ Good luck and take care.
♥Oh, so vintage... 12:00 PM
