Oh, so vintage?

Monday, January 30, 2006

What day is today? why everyone is celebrating? I saw couple, ppl with gd frens, happy family taking orange, gong xi fa cai here and there.. lolx.. wat am I doing? a normal, a very normal day... I got no relative at all.. the only relative I can go but cannot go, why? there is some problem that I can't explain simply just over here.. I never never felt so lonely before on chi new year in my life.. never.. even chi new year eve, I dun even wanna see the count down on the tv, I force myself to go slp before 12am.. y? y?y? y amI doing all this? I dun know.. I only know I really hate chi new year.. I dun wanna have that kind of feeling make me turn very sour... tml.. is the second day of new year.. I still also need to stay at home.. my fren? gd.. fren.. not free, said go out, in the last? pui.. and someone said come my house bian nian.. lolx.. forget it, actually before all this, I already know will happen this kind off thing.. Today went out with my family watch , very nice show but with the wrong ppl, why, because there is someone I dun really like, my bro.. I really dun know why I getting more and more hate him.. I know ppl who read this will said as a bro why do I need to do this.. the story is too long for all of u to know.. so I am really tire of everything.. I felt lost.. I really felt lose.. even study.. I really dun know how to said.. I gonna lost my way out of working and studying.. coz Is really too tire working and studying.. I can't really concentrate, I gonna lost control already.. somebody pls help me.. pls~ what can I do, I cannot quit my job anyway.. ppl who know me well, should know why I can't quit.. what is the world about? when can I see the beautiful world agian? when my life will fill with colour agian????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥Oh, so vintage... 1:52 AM