Saturday, October 28, 2006
Pls help me! I am really really freaking tired.. I feel I am full of burden.. I got no time to really rest.. and today I feel really down.. really really really down.. I wun said much abt y I am so down.. I just really wanna shout out here.. ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tell me WHY????????????????????
I feel like some how my mind is going to go mad.. I am not thinking too much.. that is a fact... y ppl like tat able and y I am not? I really dun understand! is this fair for ppl like me? What for to have so much knowledge as ppl without any fucking knowledge can gain wat I wan and I can't get wat I wan?? wat is going wrong?? I just wan that feeling... is tat so hard? fuck god! it is not fair to me..
I am really fucking tired of life... really tire.. as a human.. you really need to know alot of thing and suffer alot alot alot... if u r someone like me so sensitive and not easy to put down things.. you will really go mad for being a human... ppl said life is just like roller coaster, and that's wat I told my fren to when they r freaking down.. but god! can u hear me? how long I going to be down?? how long is my roller coaster is going up again? If I will to given a chance to go back.. I will cherish every single thing I lost.. I feel so regret I didn't do all the best I need to do.. how I hope when I wake up tml.. everything will be so nice and beautiful..
My heart.. inside me now.. I really felt very terrible..
♥Oh, so vintage... 1:09 AM
